My name is Sandra Wallace and I am starting my very first blog here, right here, today, with you. I just want to take a moment to thank you for your curiosity, your time and your interest in what I’m about to share with you.
In early 1994 I met a 27-year-old woman who lived with fear daily. Her outward appearance was well-groomed except for her hands. Her hands were red, rough and macerated. She always appeared happy and positive around others. From the outside, she seemed to have it all together. What I failed to recognize was that deep down, she was tormented, tormented with persistent impulses, thoughts and images that were dominating her everyday life.
The only way to relieve the fear and anxiety was to control herself and her mind the best she could, in a way that involved doing mental tasks or repetitive behaviours. Her feeble attempt at trying to relieve herself of the anxiety and/or prevent bad things from occurring.
One of the main fear, at the time, was the fear of contracting HIV-AIDS or getting sick or worse yet, making someone else sick. Therefore, it was important to spend time washing and washing and washing. Cleansing the hands of any touch, any contact of a foreign body. Did she touch the tap? Oh! She'll have to wash her hands again.
Over time, these repetitive behaviours started to monopolize her time. Someday she was spending up to four-five hours on such tasks to avoid or minimize contamination fears.
The energy she put forth to make this possible slowly began to wear on her and her world started closing in. It wasn’t long before she started to isolate herself between the four walls of her own home. She tried her best to control her meeting environment - trying not to face the world and all its fears, unpredictability and uncertainty.
Finally, on September 15th, the doctor was able to diagnose her symptoms and signs as being obsessive compulsive disorder, otherwise known as OCD. The daunting thoughts and images crippling her mind finally had a name.
Knowing this Woman today, I was curious to know how she was able to turn her life around to what it is today before I go any further and share the rest of her story I want to first introduce you to this Woman.
Her name is Sandra Wallace. That woman is ME!
Yes, I won the battle against OCD, but my war continues through the mission - to help everyone I can who is struggling with OCD and this is what is the core value of Sandra Wallace Inc.
I have started these blogs to offer you the right insight into understanding OCD and help as many people I can through the right guidance.
MY desire and passion is to help others be able to live a life that matters instead of a life that merely exists. So please, join me as the story of Sandra unfolds in the blogs that follow.